KALAU KATAKU INI YA

mendapatkan hal2 yang mendewasakan saya belakangan ini, dan dapat menarik kesimpulan: 

pertama, apapun yang udah terjadi, yang sedang terjadi, dan yang akan terjadi, semuanya udah ada yang ngatur.

kedua, positif thinking adalah hal yang sangat bagus kalo kita lakoni dengan ikhlas :)

ketiga, sebagai manusia kita diberi kemampuan untuk berpikir, jadi tau dong mana yang baik atau buruk. kalau baik diikutin, kalo buruk ya ditinggalin aja. kan ga ada yang protes toh

keempat, waspada dan mempersiapkan diri untuk kondisi terburuk. namanya juga kita menjalani hukuman di dunia fana ini, pasti ada hal2 yang membuat kita berduka, intinya gak selalu senang lah :) Tuhan pasti menyelipkan harapan didalamnya. Enjoy!

kelima, sabar sabar sabar!!! humble humble humble!!! rajin2 senyum dan berterimakasih!!! kurangin keluhan!!!

keenam, ikutin aja dasa darma pramuka. hehehe

kalimat itu aku dapat dari figure yang selalu menjadi pembimbing dalam setiap langkahku dalam menjalani kehidupan ini :)

good bye, Super Mama :* :') ({}) :( :'( :""""""

do you know what is worse than missing someone? missing the moment you share with Her :')

Now, that she's gone, it breaks a lil part of my heart. yet, i know she'll get the best place in heaven. 

Gonna miss you MOM.

  bener kata papa kemarin, "belajar mandiri, belajar hidup susah, biar SADAR DIRI, GA MANJA, GA ANDELIN ORANG LAIN!" 

"i'm a strong girl who keeps her stuff in line, even when i have tears going down my face, i always manage to say those two words: I'M FINE!"

it just like #*&$(@&$)(^$)

well…

i am kinda busy , or let say try to busy or seems like busy, and actually i am not busy at all. i just feel empty in every condition. maybe i am bored of something or just want to stay calm.

empty, just like that, i don’t feel anything, i don’t feel love, i don’t feel safe, i just live my life following the current direction flows. and this emptiness pressed me softly. i hate being myself right now. i didn’t recognize myself. i lost my soul. i trapped in an unknown condition, i don’t know how to out from this big black hole. too much trashy mind to be thought, sins. too much talk, confuse what to be realized, stressed out. embarrassed with all past deeds, afraid of what come tomorrow.

hey, who are you? you are God’s armor don’t you? so why you did those bullshit thingy? where’s your mind? where’s your heart? remember, you’ve been redeemed, and you have to show people that you are His daughter. so stop doing fake and illogical things. forget the past, don’t ever look back. and start your new day with new hopes.

quotes for me :))

Moving on isn’t about not loving someone anymore and forgetting them. It’s about having the strength to say “I still love you, but you’re not worth this pain.”

Just because you fail once doesn’t mean you’re gonna fail at everything.

When you think he’s you’re prince charming, but you’re not his cinderella, move on.

I never stop loving someone. I just learn to live without them.

biar foto yang berbicara :) *super friends*

sempat berfoto sebelum jam UAS :) 

ini sama teman seperjuangan @RPririn

besarku Olla :* 

@CorollaRD

Dies Natalis kampus tercinta (FIKOM UNPAD) :)

@mbeexcity and @nurullgumilang

sama super friends :*

teman seperjuangan gue :)

@nurullgumilang

perdana nobar with @utdindonesiaJTR and @utdindonesiaBDG :)))

loved this moment

smst.1 :)))))) 

yes, my besties @virginapm 

HBD Geral :))

teman seperjuangan di SMA :)

@Reno_prakoso and @tianramdhan1 

Jatinangor 'indah' namun penuh luka :)

Aku hanya pemeran figuran untuk kalian sang pemeran utama, begitu juga kamu yang yang menjadi pemeran figuran untuk aku sebagai pemeran utama.

karena hidup ini adalah episode terindah, sang sutradara yang tak tertandingi skenarionya.

:)

JATINANGOR

bertemu banyak sekali orang baru, pengalaman, dan ilmu baru. Jatinangor, dimana setiap sudutnya menjadi saksi bisu tentang kenangan, menyimpan cerita tentang cinta dan kita :')

-jatinangor indah, namun penuh luka-

:)

Go after her. Fuck, don’t sit there and wait for her to call, go after her because that’s what you should do if you love someone, don’t wait for them to give you a sign cause it might never come, don’t let people happen to you, don’t let me happen to you, or her, she’s not a fucking television show or tornado. There are people I might have loved had they gotten on the airplane or run down the street after me or called me up drunk at four in the morning because they need to tell me right now and because they cannot regret this and I always thought I’d be the only one doing crazy things for people who would never give enough of a fuck to do it back or to act like idiots or be entirely vulnerable and honest and making someone fall in love with you is easy and flying 3000 miles on four days notice because you can’t just sit there and do nothing and breathe into telephones is not everyone’s idea of love but it is the way I can recognize it because that is what I do. Go scream it and be with her in meaningful ways because that is beautiful and that is generous and that is what loving someone is, that is raw and that is unguarded, and that is all that is worth anything, really.