it just like #*&$(@&$)(^$)

well…

i am kinda busy , or let say try to busy or seems like busy, and actually i am not busy at all. i just feel empty in every condition. maybe i am bored of something or just want to stay calm.

empty, just like that, i don’t feel anything, i don’t feel love, i don’t feel safe, i just live my life following the current direction flows. and this emptiness pressed me softly. i hate being myself right now. i didn’t recognize myself. i lost my soul. i trapped in an unknown condition, i don’t know how to out from this big black hole. too much trashy mind to be thought, sins. too much talk, confuse what to be realized, stressed out. embarrassed with all past deeds, afraid of what come tomorrow.

hey, who are you? you are God’s armor don’t you? so why you did those bullshit thingy? where’s your mind? where’s your heart? remember, you’ve been redeemed, and you have to show people that you are His daughter. so stop doing fake and illogical things. forget the past, don’t ever look back. and start your new day with new hopes.